Who am I? I am Hungry.

I was talking to a friend on the phone recently about life which brought many different avenues of thought and personal memories. One memory that came to mind was a question that was asked to me a long time ago that I would like to share with you.
I was coordinating some ministry work with my church providing meals for events like Special Olympics, food bank donations, and just loving on people with a home cooked meal in a time of need. In one event I was cooking meals for was a popular band that came to our town. After providing the meal and meeting the band members, one of them asked me a simple yet profound question I had never really been asked before. He asked me, Who are you Pam? This question stopped me in my tracks. I stumbled and stuttered over words trying to answer but I came up short leaving an awkward silence. I was with a friend as I was asked this question. She saw my struggle and jumped in and gushed about me and my accomplishments. I was relieved as her jumping in took the heat off of me but this question/conversation has haunted ever since.
I was explaining this memory to my friend and how I responded with awkwardness. I described how much it bothered me because I couldn’t answer the question. After a while into our conversation my friend then asked, Well Pam, Who are you? I immediately got nervous. As I sat there evaluating the question a shift happened. I took a breath and responded confidently saying, I am someone who is hungry for life and everything that it can bring. I hunger for challenges, experiences, and the drive to push past what society and traditions train me to live like. I hunger to break strongholds in my life and in others with love, humility and no apologies.
I realized I was trying so hard to come up with the ‘right’ response years ago, that it stunted my true self. Physically I may show no growth (currently still rockin my 5ft size) but my spirit grown immeasurably. Who am I you ask? I am hungry.

Balance Hunting

Ahhhh, the ever challenging Goal of Finding Balance. Challenging but honorable to seek out. If you are like me, finding balance is hard to achieve and maintain. I get inspired and excited to do new work and personal projects and then try to accomplish them all at once. I take on new responsibilities while trying to keep myself and my family heathy, happy and find the time to enjoy friends. All this and then somewhere in that time I get some sleep and possibly a shower. Oofta!

Over the years I have learned two things when it comes to keeping Balance in my life.
#1 I learned to say NO and with an occasional Hell No when it was fitting. I learned to be assertive even if I piss off a few
#2 Prioritizing helps me find the balance point. I make a list (I am Queen of Lists) of all my commitments and prioritize them to see what I can do and let go of what I cant.
Find what works for YOU. Happy Hunting!!!

Expect It

There is so much freedom when we focus on and take responsibility for the process toward our goal than just the potential results.

Yes results are nice and rewarding and its easier said than done. But too often I find many miserable and almost debilitated in their progress when that’s THE primary focus. Not to mention how exhausted they are.

Expect to have high and low levels of performance.
Expect to not be 100% ON all the time with your food intake.
Expect to not get ALL your workouts in.
Expect it but don’t allow it to OWN you

If you are honest with yourself and are truly trying to live a healthier happier life, Expect that it WILL NOT BE PERFECT. Not even close.
Stick with your program when you can and not just when you want to or are inspired to. Weekly updates for yourself and coach will help FEED weekly consistency that will lead to your progress. Updating even if you have had an off week with little to no progress or your life is just out of control. Daily and Weekly Updates help to slow us down, teach us to be mindful & and in the moment. Those habits once formed will not only lead you towards your goal, but you will be happier and healthier in the process.

Do You Flow??

Does your workout regimen create flow within your body or is it inhibiting flow? Or is your workout regimen set up for flow and you’re using your triggers incorrectly which inhibits flow? What I mean when I say flow is energy. Without sounding like a new age dippity do da, Eastern tradition says there is an energy that flows throughout the body, invigorating every cell with a universal life force call chi. Personally being mindful as I run, lift, or simply activities like putting away laundry, I recognize there is an energy that needs constant flow. We need chi/ energy to flow in a well designed and executed workout and in our day to day in order to reach our goals optimally.

Like rain man, I would constantly remind my clients at my training studio ‘Core Tight Chest Up’ to safely execute a lift. EVERY movement should come from our core, belly button to spine, with our chest lifted to remind our hard workin self to breathe!! Just like a vehicle with its axel, movement starts from the center in order to function properly. This goes with everything we do in our day and not just inside a gym. Using our ‘axel’ as our primary trigger will fire our muscles creating strength, and increasing blood flow. This will help achieve twice the benefits and minimize time doing isolated ab exercises (Yawn) but more importantly, less chance of injury that could take us out of the game!

I am forever grateful I took shop in Highschool so I wouldn’t be the dumb blonde on the side of the road helpless and in distress. Even though that was a long time ago, I still think about everything I was taught in shop class which I feel helps me be a better athlete and coach today. So to continue on with my repeated rain man personality….Build a body to work as a functional unit. Build a body to work as a functional unit. Build a body to work as a functional unit.


Commitment + Responsibility + Education = Freedom.

I take responsibility over my nutrients I eat daily. I do not obsess over food choices, calories, macros, re-feeds etc. I go by how I am feeling but in a responsible way. If you have ever been a client of mine or even a friend, I ask that question a lot. I ask that question because I want to educate you with what your putting into your body and how you are feeling. To be present. My personal balance and freedom I have found with food was by educating myself. Education with nutrients that work for me in my every day life. I ask a ton of questions, I read and research ALOT, acquired nutrition certifications, and continued education workshops but I have been most successful by simple trial and error. I try it and if I feel good with the fuel I consumed and it helped me achieve my daily needs and goals, then I know it’s a go. If not, then I move on and see what else does.

Keeping simple rules like staying hydrated with water, macronutrient pairing to help me feel satisfied producing lasting energy and with carb timing. Our body uses carbohydrates as a number one energy source so carb timing helps me use that source the best possible way. There’s no good food or bad food, Eat this not that. There is no such thing. There is POWER in education and once you “get there” by training yourself, the FEAR of food goes away. I go out to eat, eat at family/ friend functions, travel etc. and still make great choices with those simple rules that help me stay on my forever goal path. If you are not there yet, then pack your own food to a function or eat before you go until you are. Just don’t give up.  If you need to hire someone to help you achieve this goal, then ask a load of questions and do so until you feel comfortable on your own. A coach and trainer should help you become independent not dependent.

I don’t want to come off as self- righteous or make this sound like it’s super easy to do. Easier said then done. It has taken time, commitment, and a conscious effort to get where I am today but it’s so worth it. My prayer for each one of you is your Commitment to Seek, Freedom of Choice, and Balance to Live. My goal is to educate as many of you on how to do that successfully.

Believing is Seeing

I woke up today so humbled. A feeling I wish I felt every day. I struggle between my flesh and my spirit. Constant battles I have, but always with a solution. Prayer. Prayer is a must and to be honest a pain in my butt at times. I am always praying throughout the day but I fail to actually stop and listen. It’s not until it’s time for bed when I stop moving long enough for God and I to meet up.

The reason I am humbled today is a vision that God gave me last night. I woke up in the middle of the night with this vision and felt complete peace and comfort knowing it was from God. I couldn’t sleep the rest of the night. I just wanted to bask in that moment for as long as I could because these moments are few and far between.

God speaks to all of us but in different ways. I know there are a lot of people who are skeptic and don’t believe in the same beliefs I have. (You say Potato I say Potahto) But I feel we can agree that when our dreams and aspirations in life and a force bigger than ourselves collide, it’s a very humbling, BEAUTIFUL experience. Never give up on your dreams and never stop believing because believing is seeing.

Lost Motivation

Lost motivation in your fitness goals? I recommend re-evaluating your Why. Why do you want to reach a certain fitness goal for example? Knowing your ‘Why’ can accelerate your success reaching that goal.

When I first started competing in figure, my why was simply because I just wanted to try it. (Also because I got my adult braces off and actually felt pretty enough to smile Lol) I didn’t know what the heck I was doing but I jumped in, finished, and had a blast! My why changed after that first show and has changed with each show since. I think it’s safe to call myself a veteran in my sport and with that comes wisdom. Wisdom from my experiences the past 4 1/2 years, and wisdom by looking ahead.
My current why for my sport is not to just do it or try to win a trophy/procard (Been there, done that. Its exhausting chasing those things and sucks the fun out of life) My current why is to live everyday knowing my self worth. My self worth isn’t about measuring myself based on external actions. Its more about valuing my inherent worth as a person. Wash. Rinse.Repeat



The Does & Does Nots

It’s impossible to have a relationship with Food. We often turn to food for comfort, stress relief, or as a reward, but emotional eating usually makes us feel worse. We will never appreciate food for why it was created until we really understand what it does and does not do.

Food does not have FEELINGS. It cannot fill our emotional needs when we are upset, angry, lonely, stressed, exhausted, or bored. It has no feelings.

Food does not SPEAK to us or comfort us on those bad days when no one understands us or how we feel. Food cannot tell us how wonderful we are and what our purpose on this earth is.

Food does not LEAD us to feel worthy, good enough, happy, sexy or desirable. Food does not determine how we feel.

Food does nourish and fuel our bodies. Let’s start classifying our food based on its ability to provide energy and nutrition the body needs to function optimally. Keep it simple, be honest with yourself, and stay committed. Phil 4:13

Food Smiling

Twice Baked Sweet Potatoes

Early start to my baking but so worth it for my weekend prep. Don’t fall off the wagon just because its the weekend. Here is my healthy version of Twice Baked Sweet Potatoes.
2 large sweet potatoes, 2oz plain nonfat Greek yogurt, 2 tbsp almond milk, 1 tbsp powdered stevia, 1/2 tsp cinnamon, 1 1/2-2tbsp sugar free maple syrup, 30 grams chopped raw almonds. Cut potatoes in half, bake for 20 min @425. Scoop out center of potatoes and mixed with all ingredients but almonds. Spoon mixture into potato shells and then top with chopped almond. Bake for an additional 9 min until almonds are toasty. Enjoy!!
sweet potato

Crustless & Loaded Quiche Minis

My yummy Crustless & Loaded Quiche Minis. They are great for my weekly food prep as they are a Quick’n’Easy On-The-Go breakfast. Makes 9 servings with only 65 calories per serving/mini. 7g Protein, 1.5g Carbs, 3g Fat.
Set oven @325. Beat 2 eggs, 8 eggwhites, and 1/3 plain no fat greek yogurt until blended. Set aside. Chop 4 slices bacon, 2oz ham, 1 roma tomato, 3 green onions. Mix together. Scoop 1/4 egg mixture into lined muffin pan to equal 9 minis. Fill each cup with bacon mixture and top each mini with shredded cheddar/jack cheese. 1/3cup of cheese total for all 9minis. Bake for 30 min then broil for an extra couple minutes. Top w/ some salsa along with some fruit or oatmeal. Badabing badaboom